Saturday, May 30, 2009

Dance ^^

Everyone know how to dance... its just that if you put in enough passion to dance or you just shy away from it...

What is dancing for me? erm... i think is a way to fill up what i had left out in my life...
I left out a lot of things... bcause i m timid, bcause i m not brave enough to achieve, bcause there is still things that i dont understand and i feel very restless bcause of it...

There r too much boundaries, too much chain in 1 life... i m living in chains bcause i unconsiously let myself tied up by all the norms, hopes that ppl showered onto me...

st i felt i left out sth important... just i couldnt remember. dancing... can temporarily pull me out of all this... relieved and feel lighter... ^^

Well, mayb its a way to relieve stress. mayb its a way to runaway from the reality... who knows.?

There is no judgement on how well you dance... its on how much you enjoy it. when you enjoy... no matter how bad is ur dance, it will always be nice...

*smile* hm... this world is so complicated... st when we enjoy sth... someone or sth will come in n change our perception to it a little by little... To desiration that make us wants more n suffer more...

hey hey... lolz... i think i m talking like a mad guy (girl/ aunty) now... XD

erm... enjoy ur day too... cause i m yet to tied up by a new lock n chain half willingly... mayb.

daddy will said," concentrate more in ur study. dont think so much. you r worrying too much."
yea yea. i know. trying bt st cant control my mind wat. hmph.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Swing

Somehow i m speechless now...
ntg make me speechless... just i m troubled by sth....

n i kept thinking of a swing... wth. cant find any in bukit jalil...

human r bounded by ethical, laws and rules...
blah blah blah~~ why is it so....
n there is so many bias n hope arising from someone to someone... which will cause pain to others...
yet we must just bear it n live for the sake of it...

Life... what r u?
I m still learning hard to understand you n yes... i admit that i m weak in front of you...

Monday, May 25, 2009

IcY~~

I have a urge to dug my teeth into icy cold things now~
But i cant... T.T due to some problems...

So... i decided to stay in the cold e lab and have myself surrounded by this unhuman chilliness...

*eyes r going to shut down very soon*

found that there is nothing interesting to do now...
The book i m reading now is.... boring... ...
Preparing for exam is boring too... i can read but the stuffs that i read will eventually fade from my too small brain...
grr.... so which should i start first... GIT? HAema? Respi? or CVS??

anywayz~ this is the mango sogo ice from Sweet Bean.
I misses it a lotz a lotz a lotz~

p/s: we always like things that look nice, sweet n pretty because we yearn that we will b as lucky as them and hoping that we ourselves can get some luck by staying near to them.
we all... yearn to b love and cared.

p/s: u r just so gentle like Honey that is sleeping by my side every night.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Post summative 2

I finished my summative 2 yesterday.... well... i giv in my best... and amazingly remember nearly all the drugs that i can reach in haemato and GIT....
but somehow i still feel that i didnt did really well in this paper...n this time a lot of biochem came out.... swt.
not to b negative but i m not even sure if i can pass it... ...

I forget van de Berghs... the test for bilirubin which i think its sound funny... like some name from a fancy movie n kept laughing at it...
mayb i shouldnt laugh at its name.... XD XD

After a very stressful feedback bcause i m stressing my eyes to look at the blur n small answers... swt.
N... a very swt swt swt OSCE briefing.... (Dr Juriah didnt show herself.... mayb bcause of NAtasha... XD XD XD)

I went for movies marathon. 2 very very good movies. ^^ (before that went to pasta zanmai for lunch~)

First 1 is "ANGEL AND DEMON"!!!!!!!!
I didnt read its book so i cant compare it with the movie.
But the movie is action packed and... oh my gosh.
history is really... a nice subject after watching this particular movie.

Tom Hanks look better in this movie~ He is so so so smart. I admired him!!! woohoo~
the main actress is pretty too ^^

Somehow i feel tired after watching it.... the actors inside keep running n carried heavy things~ XD XD

N i love this quote, " religion is not flawless just bcause human is not flawless too"

nothing is perfect but it is our duty to make it near to perfect. ^^




STAR TREK!!!! woohoo~
i think i watch 1 or 2 of its series when i m really young...
The hairstyle of the vulcans are really classic~ cant help giggling when looking at their hair...

But owh!!!! the two main char in this movie is SUPER SUPER SUPER HOT!!!! n intelligent. geesh.... ok. i m also 1 of those gals that go after hot guys. bcause they r simply too attractive. =P


p/s: must watch this two movies ya~ cause they r simply great movie~ ^^

below is the picture of a driller.... its so so so cool.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

To briughten this Negative---filled place... ^^

XD had been verey emo nowadays~ here is some "nie" pictures to share abt. Havent really upload any pictures in these 2 month.



=> Mapo tofu rice!!! i love tofu!!! n this is the main food i m serving in my restaurant city cafe in facebook~ kakaka~






This is some "retarded" spaggetti i cooked for my mum during mother's days~
lolz... look really "retarded" when i look at this pic~
bt somehow my mom said its creative to put eggs on top of spaggetti... XD



The flowery stuff... its called "Ye lai xiang" in chinese. It can help you to have watery n bright eyes~ I m not sure how true it is. But i LOVE~~~~ this soup a lot. its nice especially this bowl. Full of love from mommy n its freshly pick from my uncle's garden~

(below) XD the first time i won mastermind in just using 2 rows!!!! happy!!! i m quite lucky in this game~ ^^











Ok.... this is the cactus plant in my room n its still living on... happy n fat plus it reproduce a lot of babies~
It has a name but i m not going to tell anyone~ so no need to ask la~

















Newly added collection of my medical books~ Bailey n Love. Its huge!!!!
Geez~~ i had difficulty carry it arounds~ it even bigger than kumar n clark. WTH!!!!
i just dont like big books~
bt since u had such a "loving" title. i shall try to love u~ ^^

Some good deed from someone~ sending this drink when its super hot last week~
thanks its refreshing~ ^^







The light in my toilet spoilt.... They r very prone to bcome firefly....
basically bathing in dark the last whole week~ n its SCARY!!!!!! bcause i scare when i look into mirror i saw 2 persons in it~ luckily didnt happened.
Then, thanks for a good soul then took me to buy the light bulb yesterday...
if not i will still continue to bath in that dark, gloomy, horrible toilet. ish~ ok....
continue to study.... Liver Pathology 2.
Q: What is the drug used to treat cryptosporosis?
A: Hyperimmune bovine Colostrum
Nitazoxanide
Spiramycin
1 more.... forget... lets check. oooo.... azithromycin n clarithromycin

Saturday, May 16, 2009

The worst phrase in this world


Last week i watched.... quite a lot of movies....
But this is the phrase that i remember the most....
cause it hurts me when i hear it.
"You are prefect, but somehow you are not the perfect guy (person) to me."
Damn... i work so hard to b ur perfect guy n now u dump me n go with someone that is much more imperfect....
i feel sorry for the guy... very very sorry.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Ignore this post.... i m just trying to find a way to release stress

C.... i m going to flood here with super lotz of tonnes of negative posts....

My confident level drops like an apple falling onto the ground.... fast n swiftly...

Thursday is the worst day of the week... CSU in the morning... then lab.... which the faci only turn out b4 i wanted to leave.... ok. thats a good sign.... at least i didnt miss her class...

During class... i m praying n praying n praying that i wont b the choosen 1 for the CSU stupid video tapping session. randomly picked....
n as usual... the stuffs that require lotz of work n challenge to finish always came to me...
I M CHOOSEN!!!!! WHAT THE HECK!!!
i m so so so so so so so so so so bad in communicating in ppl n they wanted to film me doing that....
well.... what i need to say is " i may cry there" cause i hate facing ppl with negative aura n i tend to get frighten away by them.
n for me to show that i care for someone... it takes time~ i cant just do something spontaneously...
i m DEAD!!!!! DEAD MEAT!!!!!

although some of my friends try to comfort me.... but hahaha!!!! sorry to say.... i cannot n dont accepy the comfort.... i feel like i m ignorantly push into something that i dont know n it is for a laughing matter of other ppl...

some said it is a good experience... mayb in ur opinion bt not MINE! i hate this type of stuff....
geez~~~ god just love me so much that he tries to train me to b a better person...

Thanks Dr Chew to b my faci... yea yea. u r 1 of those special n talented guy that i ever met... nice to meet you...
but i m still in depression... can u conduct a SOS session for me?? its for the stupid CSU!!!!! grr~~

n dont ever try to force me to do sth i dont like... if i said no once..... then its no forever... except u get a way to talk me into it.... its such ridiculous just bcause u like it then i need to follow what u said. what kind of bullshit is it? hmph.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I think i will have a long PBL today~~ hepatitis only also have more than 3 pages to talk about....

Hopefully i dont get rejected by this hospital... every members in my group r tired about asking n get rejected already... God bless me~

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there~
someone supporting me n giving me... Non common sense support~@@

I have flu again... mayb 2009 is a flu year to me....
I had flu for 3 times this year n sorethroat for around 5 times....

Coughing too vigorously in PBL yesterday...
n my faci thought i m eating sth n suddenly choked myself.... swt...
its the stupid postnasal drip la... XD
Found that i can bring "Swt" to my faci face very easily... XD

I nearly killed all my brain cells by
sleeping late~
eat unhealthily~
drink too little water~
N thinking too many nonsense~

Cant get anything into my brain after studying swt....
i think i m just tired~

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Worst lecture

I just simply hate VJ....
I swear i can take over his class...
N i hate my nose now too~
lolz... should start to love sth instead of hating everything.

Monday, May 4, 2009

I killed my laptop... ...

This morning i opened my laptop to listen to some songs....
To my HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The screen CRACKED!!!!!!
the surface is still perfect n smooth....
But the image it shows is horrible n hideous....

the uncrack side show the normal start up screen bt the cracked side.... is....
totally disastrous... showing gray, white n black lines or color....
n if u touch the border.... the crack will grow.... n more monotone spaces.... T.T

DAMN!!! i think i really spoilt it.....
i think the warranty just pass.... n here due to my carelessness.... it dies....
oh gosh... if the software spoilt... i think just replace it then ok le....
bt now is the crystal liquid in the com that go bizzare.... i think i need to change the whole laptop...
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sigh sigh sigh~~~

waiting my dad to kill me in turn... ...

Saturday, May 2, 2009

3rd week of GIT

Its a very random week....
i went out with a random person to sushi on monday...
got discount voucher, so i no need to pay...

Then, go back to seremban on tuesday n very unfortunately my teeth is tighten till i can bite anything.... its very pain!!!!! n i cant open my mouth big.... bcause my dear old sweet dentist add two more rubber bands inside my mouth which restricted my mouth to open... T.T

Went for bowling... on thurs.... oh well. what i can said is.... this time i really prove that i dun know how to play bowling... the ball like the drain.... V shin is the boss that day~
Movie at nitez~~ Wolverine. first time going out with Manlo. XD its a nice movie~~ bt its a bit draggy to me.
N y m i always sitting at the front rows.... pity my neck~~~

Stay at home...the whole day yesterday~ did my PBL.... bt i still cant find how they take consent for emergency surgery.... n apa tu jejunal functional test??

Ate my lunch in Calorie just now... Happy bcause i m able to eat some sotong~ n my teeth r not tat pain already hee hee~

ok... i still cant find how to get consent n wat is jejunal function test... let it b n i will ask for answer in the next PBL~

Get a very big fright just now when YH and SY told me ADAM LAMBERT is out!!!!!
i dont expect him to get the idol title but at least he will b the top 3....
but after i check the result online....
apparently..... they tipu me again.... n i believe them 100% n heartbreaking for 2 hours.
Bad guys!!!!
i like Alison's songs for the top5 week~ ^^ Adam Lambert. u have the best vocal that i ever heard. ^^ go go go!!!